hello just popping in for a while


P.S. i might move soon .



anyways , just got back from th chiropractor , blargh . long name
well finally the qs ive longed for an answer for darn long .
th thing is my spine is bent . th on top partr is bent towards th extreme right pushing my scapula muscles and so called pressing onto them and th nerves thats why my arm is so freaking weak and the muscles tight and very pain , uncomfortable etc etc .
th bottom part of my spine is bent slightly to th left to support my back weight thats why when i lie down at night my kidney areas are freaking achey .

we i admit i was very upset when th doc told me that i cant attend netball for three months minimum . will be out of play for so long .
not that im such a pro player i am so important to th team or what but th challenge league is coming up and i was really looking fowrd to it cos i really really so badly wanted to have a go and try to make my place back in th team .
but now , you could say this vision has been destroyed .
i dont think ill be able to go back to th team ever .
in th first place , my arm power damn suck . its th worst in th team i know , maybe i just dont have th skill or maybe its beacause my right part of th body was weak because of this . \
th worst part is , theres no where to vent th anger , fustration and put th blame on anything .


everyones imperfect but i guess im just extra imperfect .

this spinal problem is kinda common among ppl our age but wont cause discomfort to th extent of having a swollen right scapula and higher raised then th left side . which is th case for me .
my right and left backs are uneven . th right side is swollen . how creepy .

i did laser treatment today for upper and lower back to loosen th nerves and muscles .
lets just say that it felt like i was standing through a hailstone downpour . that how th laser thing felt on my back .
th suction was like someone in soccer boots with th spikes walking on my upper right back .
weird .

i still cant get over what th doc said .
i think i can just give up netball .
i so badly was willing to go back again for trainings , join back th team , no matter how tough and how strenuous it was gonna be or how testing th new coach which i havent met would be . i so badly wanted a chance .
and now , i feel like i just hit th deepest pit of a valley .


i might think of changing to soccer for 3 months cos ill not be using my arm or back .
so it should be fine .
but its not th same .



ok shall stop here dont know when ill be back .


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