today im sad , tired , blearyweary , and confused . lol vanny didnt come today . she went back to indonesia for CNY .
well have a happy reunion girl . see you soon :D
class was just like any other normal day .
today we were not given half day or any celebrations like last year .
apparently , thr was no time for tt because of th rush of camps and blah .
excuses ? lol .
i freaking didnt understand a word of maths today .
nth was able to penetrate th thick skull of mine .
couldnt process anything mrs ang was saying .
everything looked so chim and lengthy and looking at th board was enough t suffocate me .
SIGH . hopeless .
i'll have no choice but to go analyse th damn problems myself ( as lilian says . ) lol
english was boring . gawd . english used to be my fav subj . always was .
whats happening man . now th classses are bo-ring me to high heaven .
i dont know if im just gonna lose all interest in english too . this is depressing
she's a nice teacher (i think ?) but th lessons.... lordy . idk man
MHMM.
BIO .
holy enchilada .
need i say more (?)
spare me GOD . she's one big TART .
and was never cut to be a teacher . bless her soul . th POOR CHILD
teach lesson also want to carry bag or like last week kiap her pencilcase under armpits .
GOODNESS .
and then thanks to our good friend jeng , we have extra 30 mins of lessons next fri .
SWEET .
chinese . (and before)
tense atmosphere ?
gosh , what happened .
like JIN EN said , i shall not poke my fish lips (which doesnt make sense ) into this matter .
but i do know whats going on .
and i hope all will be fine .
you know who you guys are , i dont mean to interfere , but i hope some of you will come to your senses and have more trust&faith in your friends .
this isnt th way , we just started out as a class and plus some of you guys are so good friends , dont let this thing happen and tear you all apart . its not gonna look pretty and it'll only make everyone sad .
made me feel abit sad too cos erm idk so many solemn faces today ?
well cheer up and find a way to settle evrything in a peaceful way .
yep , tts all ive got to say .
i hope everything will be back t normal by next wed .
i love my new class and everyone in it , seeing some of them sad , th ones who ive managed to make friends with , it makes me sad to see things turn out this way .
cherish your good friends .
dont doubt them if they already told you th truth .
and let th matter rest .
RELAX :B
anw moving on ...
chem .
i slept cos th lab lights were off and i was just sleepy .
and ms tay , (SIGH) said loudly that thr was trg today . on purpose . haha
and yeah so no choice i had to go .
i wanted t pon cos ive this mindset that it will be boring and as everyone knows , if you havent worked hard for a long time , you wont feel like starting again .
i have been missing trg for 2 whole months , only turned up for last trg in dec and now i find it a chore to go for trg ,
which is bad . idk how im gonna get myself back together again .
maybe tts why today during trg i punished myself by running pyramid and 2 rounds around th school w JAM .
plus th trg itself of course .
which we did mainly on introducing th new sec ones to new stuffs .
played WD for 2 games
and goodness . i totally forgot what i was supposed t do for th first half of th game . i even ran offside . JEEZ .
so out of play for months until like that .
pathetic to th MAX .
must train harder t get back on form .
TIPPY TOP .
tts why im gonna be trg (self trg like mad ) by myself .
next years my last chance to go back into th team .
sont think i even stand a high chance but im gonna do everything t try to wiggle my way back in .
i'll always wanna have th last say .
*grins*
btw , th sec ones are really tall .
they get taller and taller every year .
trg was very very hot . HOOHAHOT . burning .
many were absent for trg today .
after trg , had a talk w ms tay abt bio teacher and jengy's wild behaviour (Lol) and many other
people in class . and well i promised ill go talk to him about her concerns but not like he'll listen .
(*)
i dont know why i find that(*) has drifted apart from some of us and doesnt seem to want to talk to us . is it just me or what . and that im such an irritable person to him . i do think alot abt th way ppl see me .
anw , its been bugging some of us , this , and ive finally written it on my blog .
been hiding lots of stuffs lately but today i just feel like letting all out .
in a discreet manner (i do try )
but not like he will read this anw . he's own blog has been taken down .
but if you do read this and hopefully you know that im talking abt you , i'll just say this .
maybe thr's a reason youve changed and maybe we know why but you cant desrt us like tt .
youre one of th good friends we have . and a great fun too .
sure you have your crowd , your buddies from cca , and their more than cca friends , but dont forget us alright . you seem far away .
we miss your stupid antics and th good times .
sometimes , i wonder if its because of her . but you know you can always talk to us about it . i know how much she means t you and how bad youve got it for her
i know beacuse i am going through th exact same thing .
and its all your fault .
you make me want to forget how to be human . being human can be painful and testing esp when it comes down to falling for someone who doesnt even care or know . and nevr will .
to actually be able to accept that horrid truth is just .. terrible .
but nth can ever help once you start brooding over it . and it just gets worse by th day .
each time i try to forget . it gets worse .
and i dont want to go near for fear of getting hurt . but cant bear to stay far .
i hate it .
and yet i cant say anything .
cos you will shun me for real if i were t tell you how much i want to be with you .
P.s. just sth i wanted t say ,
dont know if grismond knows me and sherlyn returned his nametag .
went to his class t find him (he doesnt know who th hell we are ) and he wasnt thr anw
i was thinking , can i get 1 merit point for my act of honesty ? i mean i could have sold his nametag on ebay . he's not that bad . i bet many girls have th hots for him . just that his hair looks horrid now .
P.P.S.
qi zhi did tarot card readings for me today . she did past present future , and not celtic cross .
(ill ask for tt next time )
i got th chariot card , the empress card and another one i cant rmb .
and th conclusion is : happiness , changes , leadership(LOL) , acceptance .
mhmm , if only that were t come true .
i love her cards . they look so medivial .
but its damn ex . her pack cost about 50 bucks plus .
but nice collection .
i hope its not dabbling w th dark arts or sth right ? ( haha i sound like im in harry potter )
P.P.P.S
th fan still isnt working .
SUCKS .
rofl . *** a big reminder to myself ; buy history books !
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